you are not allowed...

I'm done.
absolutely done - with everything.
and this will go out and be directed everyone i know
and everyone i do not know...

you are not allowed
to say you're my best friend
or tell me that I'm wrong or that I'm right
or that i can trust you

because you are not my best friend if
you lie about your opinions
or go behind my back
or repeat something i don't ask you to say
and if you do that
you're not my best friend... you're not even close to a friend

you are not allowed to mess with my mind
you can't say i love you in the important context
and if you mean it - I'll realize it
I'll believe it

don't play me like an instrument. (that was an attempt at humor)
I'm tired of being treated special
and then realizing i was just a nobody all along
its too much work and time
to get over it
so don't put me through it

you aren't allowed to lie
I've been lied to so many times
that when some one does it now
and its their second time ... i let them have it
you lose me and there's no winning back my friendship
lies tear me down
and make me feel stupid
... so don't go there

this is the most important one***
because its directed to the most important person***

you are not allowed to let me love you
when you love someone else
or when you have stopped loving me
because on these circumstances i don't know where we stand

you aren't allowed to let me fall in love with you
because in the end ill get hurt

^ you already broke that rule

i don't just love you
I'm in love with you
and there's no going back now
and i hate you for it