Watch what you Create

You're going to have me be behind
Once I'm let go this world
its going to be new to me
For now you can hold on,
but let the changes appear
You did bring me into this world
this huge diverse world
but, you can't create a world for me
especially if I don't want to live in it
I've needed protection before
I had no clue where to turn
a mistake I made
you helped me clear it up
Now i put up my own shield
I'm aware of where I am
and if I make a mistake
I know how to except it
So, stop trying to hide me from this world
let me step out of the small space you had me in
under your protection, your guide
I've actually made a small escape,
you could say, they would say
I've made my own choice
to fall in love.
Then they caught on recently
but this time I chose not to hide it
I'm done masking something beautiful in my life
this time I'm telling them how it's going to be;
if they are going to try and change it
so this is when they should realize
its time to take up the wall separating me
from the real world
and this time
I won't cave in to any of their adjustments
this time they'll have to adjust
to my choice

Scare

Scared...
hm. yes. yes i am.
am I now hollow inside?
Am I empty...?
whispers turn into screams
echos end short
and breaths grow heavy
and then stop
heart beats grow faster
and paces go slower
and mean while everything is getting weaker
look around
why don't I know what's happening
What I caused and what had occured
are two different results
no one is following this
neither am I
confused, lost, and worried
fix me, end it, and save a life
who knows... mine might be ending soon
and who knows-
it might have not even begun

Guilty- was it worth the laugh?

All of you should feel guilty
EVERYONE right now should feel guilty
all of you claim to be against bullying
you wear the color to represent you are against bullying
pardon my french but BULLSHIT!

All of you are guilty of one thing
making fun of an innocent girl
who was clueless to your cruel
HURTFUL inside joke.
All of you participated in it...

I don't care if you hate her with a fiery burning passion-
there's no excuse for that MEAN action
of a joke.... it wasn't funny though
the thing is you are all sorry
because she realized
the other day that she was the subject of the joke
YOU were not laughing with her
YOU were laughing at her

There I am feeling so bad for her
I was oblivious to the whole situaution
she told me she figured it out on her own
don't go pointing fingers

the pain in her face
the holding back of her tears
the redness of her eyes
some how managed my tears to surface
she was so strong
if I were in her situation I promise...
I COULDN'T be as nearly as strong as her

People were not just MEAN
they said HORRIBLE things
placing her name in code
talking about HER in front of HER
thinking this name was imaginary...
but to all of you it was code, huh?

Well on her face she wears tears
her mind wanders with curiosity trying to figure
out what she did to deserve hatred everyday?
From people she thought was her friends

What do you wear on your face?
shame?
What do you bare on your shoulders?
regret.... REGRET that you got caught
you all should feel embaressed....
I thank God - I never participated in this joke-
I'd be so disappointed
knowing
I caused an innocent girl pain....
was it worth the laugh?

By the way...
she told me-
she forgives you all.

It angers me that I'm associated with some of you...
think about that

Love is a game?

Well in a movie the other night
I heard them say how 'life' isn't a game
YES! YES - it is!
Well....
atleast L.O.V.E. is?

I'll explain
when I say life is a game
I don't me be a playa (if you were thinking that- think again!)

I mean its like hide and seek
Love hides
we search for it
and we eventually (hopefully) find it

Then it turns into tag
You see it
and you run after it...

Hey! Guess what?
You're it <3

Absense

You were there for the first month
then you started this streak of tardies...
and soon enough you became absent over and over again
it goes on your record, you know?

Well if you are absent a lot
you miss a lot,
you were missing a lot of me
what I was saying
and if youre absent
I guess I wasn't important enough for
you to attend

but this boy on the other
hand
well I KNOW he cares about me...
and I know i care about him
so
don't try to show up now
because I'll I'm going to do
is dismiss you
I'm sorry
but
you can't make up your absesnses

Walk Away

.... and after all this time
you lied

and after all this time
you said you didn't love me

and after all this time
I'm so sorry
but I no longer love you....

You told her your new relationship
is like taking a 'walk away' from me
no matter how hard you try
you'd always end up at the starting point.

You told her seeing me
be happy with him
made you go home and punch a wall
just so maybe the pain would make you forget me
the pain only reminded you of me instead, huh?

You told him you never said anything about
him, or me, or what we might be
you never said anything, huh?
only that you had a bad feeling
and that I was replacing you

I can't replace something that isn't there
.... its not there anymore....
and I'm sorry
but i don't think it will ever be there again
just walk away
and don't look back