go ahead

go ahead
and live your life
make yourself happy
please?
anything you want
anything you need
i'm here
i'll help

so i deserved it
deserved the lonliness
the cruelness
notice* how i said deserved
past tense.

I don't anymore
i deserve love right now
and everyone's trying to
give it to me
and I won't except it from anyone
but you
so until you love me again for atleast
two seconds
I'm incapable of loving anyone else

so i deserved the lonliness
the cruelness

but this torture
is slowly killing me
this torture
is murder